because i've been slacking at home with really nothing at all to do, i have to say that this week is pretty interesting after all.

this happened on one weekday afternoon. i da bao-ed lunch to my sister in law's place one day.. and so we were lunching.. and i decided to be a little to clumsy and i swept my glass of ribena to the ground. So i had to clear up, but i couldnt find any newspapers.. so i was more than happy when i've finally swept all the glass bits onto the dustpan. I had to empty the dustpan into the rubbish chute.. so i stuck the entire dustpan into the rubbish chute whilst holding onto the stick which connects the dustpan. After some vigorous shaking i was pretty sure all the rubbish had gone down the chute. When i withdrew the dustpan stick i realised that the dustpan detached from the stick and went down the rubbish chute as well. FML. hahah.

i kinda got over the loss of the dustpan..

so this was what happened the next day.. i was sitting at my condo pick up point, waiting for boo to come pick me when this family with a really cute toddler came by. I started playing with the toddler when the mum decided to be polite and said to the toddler " boy ah call auntie". i looked around and saw no one else around.. and i was devastated. When they were about to leave, she said "ok say auntie bye bye!".........

so this is my week. omg damn sad. haha. i need some retail therapy.. hahah

A series of recent events led me to reflect on certain things. I once questioned the existence and reason of my life, as I believe most people have done so at one point or another in their lives. We live and we compete and we fight so hard just to keep ourselves alive and healthy, and at the end of the day, we still die. So why fight so hard?

I've been sheltered all my life, and it's hard not to be pampered, but of course I'm not giving any excuses. I tend to over expect, and I tend to get frustrated when things do not go the way I want it to (in other words, I admit I'm spoilt, to a certain extent). I might not have the smoothest ride of a life, but I am appreciative of the fact that I've been provided with a life more comfortable than most people around the world.

Until today I still do not understand what life is for, but I've realize that what's important is the experiences we gain out of everything that happens. Everyday we live brings us one step closer to death. And we can only make the best out of that day before it slips away from us. And what makes the life we lead so meaningful is the relationships we have with the people around us, the bonds we build and the moments we share. Whether that something makes us happy or sad, at the end of the day, we know that we've come out stronger and we've learned something out of it.

There are plenty of times I do not know how to cherish and appreciate, and to be honest, most people do start taking things for granted after awhile, intentionally or not. Human nature makes us complacent, and it takes effort to remind ourselves not to be. It is a constant struggle to do what is right - and the definition for what is right differs for each and every one of us.

For me, I'll just stick to doing what I think I should be doing. At the end of the day, we alone answer for our actions. Let's put it this way - we all have a "book of my life" within us, and this book records whatever we want to record within it throughout our lifetime. And the memories and lessons we choose to remember, we keep it in our book and it belongs to you alone. I can honestly say that I'm still finding the way, but at least I know who are the people that are important to me and I know that there are certain lessons and experiences that I want to keep for a lifetime.